Why is it so hard?

I haven't even started writing this post yet and I know it's going to be a hard one for me. In fact I have been putting it off all week to avoid feeling and talking about the feelings I know it will bring up.

Mental Health... When we are feeling good it seems so simple to say to someone I am always here for you, if you need to talk, etc. I tell my friends this all the time and I do sincerely, whole heartedly mean it. I want them to confide in me, I want to help in anyway I can even if it is just listening. I will always be here to listen and offer what comfort I can for those going through a hard time. When people tell me the same thing I believe it, I know they will be there for me, so why is it when I'm having a hard time it's so difficult to reach out? 🤔

This fall I spent a couple of months not feeling like myself, having days where for no particular reason I just felt so down. I would spend the day crying at nothing, thinking bad things about myself, thinking that I'm unworthy of this beautiful, intelligent, strong child I created.
Aside from my husband and speaking to a counsellor I didn't reach out so a single person.

Why not?
I think partly it is because when we are down we don't want to talk to others, we are in a bad headspace already and although it's not true we feel like we are burdening others with our sadness, and bad mood if we tell them.

So many people suffer in silence, I don't know how to conquer this, or change it but I know that I can't be the only one. If you feel like this too know that you are not alone, that your friends and family want to listen, to help... Easy for me to say now that I'm feeling more like myself but it's true. If you don't feel like you can reach out to your loved ones then seek professional help, or a hotline. As hard as it may be it can help to talk about it.

Take care of yourselves ❤️