Back to work I go
I have been off work for a little over a year now, first prepping for baby's arrival and then taking care of the precious bundle I delivered into the world ❤️ now as I prepare to head back to work I am filled with all kinds of emotions some of which majorly conflict with each other!
On one hand I am excited to see and spend time with my amazing coworkers who I have missed seeing regularly over the last year, as well as our regular customers, who often brighten my day 😍
I am looking forward to having some 'time to myself' even though it's not really alone time, it's time that will be spent where there isn't a tiny human depending on me for survival, time spent engaging in adult conversation even it is mostly me asking what salad dressing they want or ensuring my customers have everything they need.
I am happy that while I am at work my husband will be getting quality time with our daughter.
On the other side of the happiness spectrum I fell like I am missing out on what has become family time for us. I fear missing major milestones in Adalynne's development while I am out of the house for 8 hours.
I am not looking forward to getting up early (earlier than I even would normally with a baby) to head into work.
And lastly I am not looking forward to the physical toll that hauling arse around the restaurant all day is going to have on my body, especially for the first few shifts.
I am thankful though that I am returning on my terms, I am only returning for Sundays until summer where I will pick up some extra shifts. Meaning that we won't need to accommodate daycare, which can come with more financial strain then actual earnings. I am thankful that my work from home business will make up the difference and then some allowing me to only need to return for the one day.
Tomorrow is my first day back to work and I am excited, nervous, scared, and happy all at the same time. Can you say conflicted much 😂 Also, I can't believe I picked day light savings as my first day back to work 🤦🏼♀️
On one hand I am excited to see and spend time with my amazing coworkers who I have missed seeing regularly over the last year, as well as our regular customers, who often brighten my day 😍
I am looking forward to having some 'time to myself' even though it's not really alone time, it's time that will be spent where there isn't a tiny human depending on me for survival, time spent engaging in adult conversation even it is mostly me asking what salad dressing they want or ensuring my customers have everything they need.
I am happy that while I am at work my husband will be getting quality time with our daughter.
On the other side of the happiness spectrum I fell like I am missing out on what has become family time for us. I fear missing major milestones in Adalynne's development while I am out of the house for 8 hours.
I am not looking forward to getting up early (earlier than I even would normally with a baby) to head into work.
And lastly I am not looking forward to the physical toll that hauling arse around the restaurant all day is going to have on my body, especially for the first few shifts.
I am thankful though that I am returning on my terms, I am only returning for Sundays until summer where I will pick up some extra shifts. Meaning that we won't need to accommodate daycare, which can come with more financial strain then actual earnings. I am thankful that my work from home business will make up the difference and then some allowing me to only need to return for the one day.
Tomorrow is my first day back to work and I am excited, nervous, scared, and happy all at the same time. Can you say conflicted much 😂 Also, I can't believe I picked day light savings as my first day back to work 🤦🏼♀️
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